I’m nervous about September
I am nervous about September 28, 2022. I am nervous that I will contemplate suicide during National Suicide Prevention Awareness Month. I am nervous that I will not be able to talk myself out of taking my life. Since my Grandma’s passing, along with grieving other aspects of my life, the urge to die has been one hell of a force. You see, when I’m in that hopelessly numb headspace, I cannot see reason for any other way out. Suicide seems easy. Suicide seems fast.
It’s the LLC for me!
Reboot: Working on My Wellness
The Kia Soul flashed its lights to me. I thought for a split second, this could be my way out of here! This could be my opportunity to die and no one would have to know that I am suicidal in the first place. But, the thought that I had just text my daughter that I was on my way home and I could not let her down. So, I swerved off the road in the last seconds.
Resilience: Make It Good, Before it gets Bad!
What is resilience? According to Google, resilience is defined as “the capacity to recover quickly from difficulties; toughness.” Some key words in that definition are recover, quickly, difficulties, and toughness. So let’s think about it, RECOVERY, QUICKNESS, DIFFICULTIES, and TOUGHNESS.
Flex Your Power Over Situations!
“Don’t just accept an offer, start a new routine, go a new direction… because you are afraid that you will not have other options. So, when faced with a situation that does not seem to be going in your favor…”
Chiile, “Control Your Emotions”
How many times have you heard the saying, “Control your emotions”? What does that really mean? Have you ever heard of a parent to their child saying, “fix your face, before I give you something to really be upset about”? This approach discourages expressing emotions and minimizes what the child may be feeling at the time. Hearing this on a regular basis could ultimately lead to an inappropriate expression of feelings in the long run.
Counting Down the Days: I set my Expiration Date!
“All these losses on top of my new grief sends me over the edge often. The realities of life hurt so badly that I actually threw in the towel. I allotted myself a little over six months to get things in order and then I decided I will end my human experience.”
I am not an imposter…
I am NOT an imposter… I am Dr. Kay Lo Jo! Sometimes, I have to remind myself who I am and what I am capable of.